Chapter 1

I woke up that morning, sweat rolling down my face. It was just a dream, I was still human --- untouched by Edward Cullen. That is all my dream had been about, I was in a dark forest trying to reach for Jacoc - my Jacob - he was far in the clearing and it didn't matter how fast I ran, I would never reach him. I lost my breath and I was falling, my head spinning while a cold hand lifted me up and I met his gaze. Those golden eyes turning into red eyes while he reached for my neck. And that's when I woke up.
I stretched my arms trying to reach for him - and I did reach him, right beside me - while he was still sleeping. His breathing was even and I could still feel the warmness of his skin. I held my Jacob trying not to think about my terrifing dream.
I watched his sleep and realized that I could do that for hours. He was beautiful.
Ever since he imprinted on me, I couldn't turn my back on him. Twenty-four hours never seemed enough time to spend with him. If the day would last Fourty hours it wouldn't be enought.
He blinked and looked at me --- Smiled, whispered "Good morning" and kissed me slowly.
I couldn't help but smile back. That's why I could never be mad at Jake --- his smile would break the ice on me.
"Good Morning" I sighed in relief, just to see that he was awake "I'm sorry I didn't cook you breakfast yet, I was just watching you sleep and I couldn't help myself"
"Don't worry Bells, I'll just cook it myself. For both of us"
"Since when do you cook?" I chuckled "You're just as good at cooking as Charlie. Are you trying to kill us? The day is just beginning"
He kissed me on the forehead and whispered in my ear "Go ahead, my dear. Pancakes with honey"
I laughed and jumped out of our bed. The day was sunny in La Push. It was usually like this in the morning and I was getting used to it. Jacob had built a small house for us, right behind his old one. It was more like a room, but the size didn't really matter. As long as I could be with him. And this way, he could stay helping old Billy - now my father-in-law - with anything he needs.
I went out to wish him good lucky on his hunting after our breakfast. They were after some bloodsuckers - I didn't like to call them that way myself, but spending time with Jake and his friends was making me talk just like them - that were crossing La Push's border limits and hunting around the area. Four deaths in a period of two months and all they could do was memorize their scents for huntings. I couldn't believe Sam had agreed to let Jacob spend the night with me. It was one of the few --- he would mostly ask Jacob to spend the whole night out watching the forests and the reservation.
"I had a weird dream last night" I bit my lower lip softly as I watched his eyebrows pull together.
"What was it about?" He asked with true curiosity on his voice.
"Hum --- Edward Cullen" I said in a voice so low that I was quite sure he could only hear me because of his werewolfe's senses.
His mouth fell open "Tell me about it" and I could feel the bitterness on his voice.
"Well, I was reaching for you if it makes you feel better. And then I was falling and he came and tryed to turn me into one of them" I made a disgust sound and added "It was just a dream"
"I know" He said as he pulled me closer "But it makes me sick to think of you with some one else --- You're all mine"
He gave me a breath-taking kiss and I rolled my arms around his neck, pulling him closer. I lost count of my heartbeats and it would take a few minutes for me to re-catch my breath. But maybe I could convince him to go back inside and make it worth the long hours I would be spendind without him. That would be a long day without his comforting presence.
"I was lucky enough when my pack decided to give me a day off. Let's not push it too hard" He said widening my favorite smile on his face. "Though, I'd rather be with you sweet Bells"
"Ok then, promisse you'll come home as soon as possible. I can't bare a day with you off. I get concerned, you know. I wish I was strong enough to be with you trought this" I bit my lip and watched his smile fade a little bit.
"And who said you're not with me all the time? I carry you in my heart. That gives me strenght to go on. But thinking about you becomes a problem --- for my concentration and my pack's. But they get really mad when I start thinking about our time alone. Specially Leah. And it makes me really mad that they can see you ---" He hesitated on that part "Well, naked. But I can't help but think about that for a long period of time. This sharing thoughts thing is driving me insane." He chewed his lip softly and tryed to look away. I'd forgotten about that part.
I couldn't help but smile. What could I do? There was nothing he could hide from his pack at this point. It used to bother me. But I was starting to get used to this. Well, I had to get used to this.
"Well, go fast so you'll be back sooner. The day's gonna be endlessly without you. I love you. More than you can even imagine" And kissed him again. I could feel my heart jumping. Butterflies. One simple touch of his hands would leave me hanging breathless. I was hopeless. After eleven months - the most perfect months of my life. Or like I liked to call it --- 'my life started eleven months ago' - I would stiil act like a child. Not only because of his touch. I'd still get and clumsy - more than I already was - when I was being watched by his eyes or when he flashed that beautiful wide smile to me. That was something I would never get used to.
I watched while he walked away. It was really going to be a long day. I walked into Billy's house and found him in the kitchen reading the newspaper and chewing some toasts and egg.
"Good morning kid. Had a good night?" He asked without taking his eyes off the newspaper. "Another person's missing. The wolves are going to go crazy when they find out about this"
"Oh ---" That would mean a few more hours without Jake. "So my day was fine."
"Don't worry. Their good at their job. Protecting, you know?" He said just as if he knew what I was complaining about. "Just give it a few more days and everything will be back to its usual"
"I hope so" I said hopelessly.
"Oh, forgot to tell ya. You got a message from Charlie. He wants you to visit him more often. He misses you like crazy. Well, you better check it out yourself."
"Yeah, I will. Thank you Billy" And I left him alone.
While I listened to Charlie's sad voice on the machine, I was wondering how worse things could get. I didn't want Jacob to have a reason to stay away from me. Even though I knew that was not what he wanted. But that was his job, protect his lands. The lands that once belonged to his grandfather and now were his responsibility. I realized that the message was over when I heard a noise coming from the machine. I picked up the phone and dialed Charlie's number.
That was exactly what Billy said --- He missed me and complained about how less often I was coming around. But he said something unexpected in the middle his complains "Oh --- Edward and Alice Cullen came for a visit last night. They were looking for you. I thought I better let you know, kid."
I froze and couldn't find the words to answer nor ask more questions. All I could whisper was "I'll call you later dad." And hung up the phone.
What would they want with me? What were they looking for? I couldn't figure it out myself. Edward wasn't alone --- He was with Alice. So it couldn't be about us. And all I had to do was waiting the long hours pass slowly until Jacob was back. He would have to be the first to know about this unexpected visit.
So i sat in front of the window, staring at our little house and waiting on the loving one to come back home.